How much abuse do you think people should take?

Is the number zero?

Guess what, you're people.

There are a shocking amount of people who don't know what abuse is and even more that think a little is okay apparently.

@RickiTarr I'm not sure if this is regarding anything in particular; if so, i apologize.

I have only recently come to terms with the likelihood that I'm in an abusive relationship. It's a lot to think about, for sure.

As far as 'not knowing', I'm sure growing up in an abusive household didn't help. Sitcoms (with few exceptions) always seemed an unacheiveable ideal - i knew absolutely nobody that lived like that, so people treating each other with respect seemed to just be more of the same.

I have a lot of theories as to why that might be the case.

@roknrol @RickiTarr this is a difficult situation. You’re not the first to encounter it. Help is out there. Seek.🥺

@KatLS @RickiTarr Progress toward escape is already being made. I will not be able to care for myself until I get surgery, then 4-6 weeks of recovery time. In the meantime, I've been packing up all of my shit. I'm about a week out from paying for a new house in France, which will be in my name only. Once there I sign over my portion of the Portland house to her, we divorce, no fuss no muss. She can sink or swim and it won't matter in the slightest to me.

I realize this sounds like all hopeful bullshit, but that really is the sum total of what it will take to get me out of here.

I am also still waiting on disability, but having spoken to them last week I am hopeful to have an assessment soon. My heart disease is likely to kill me, so I very pointedly qualify so...<shrug> it's hard not to be hopeful I guess, even though nothing is actually resolved yet.