How to end the pain? - Lemmy.World

I (33M) know that most of you will judge me and tell me that I’m stupid for even thinking about it. But I’m thinking of ending things. But for real. I am tired of being angry and ashamed of myself. I don’t see a way out. I’m stuck in a highly toxic relationship. I get no respect from people. When I stand up for myself people freak out and call me crazy. I don’t enjoy anything anymore without feeling ashamed. When I open my mouth, I hurt everyone around me. I don’t see the light anymore. My therapist is basically just telling me to look on the bright side of things. There is nothing bright anymore. Does anyone know a painless way out?