I've been really struggling lately, just to keep myself held together. It's hard.
My girlfriend of 2¾ years broke up with me on Friday, and we still live together and are trying to be friends, which is hard but will be worth it, my uncle is currently dieing as we speak, and the morning we found out he had leas than a week left to live, i got laid off from my job of 4 years.
I guess you could say "bro, I am straight up not having a good time"
I think perhaps the hardest thing is that, while this decline in romantic attraction had been steady for awhile before, once I started transitioning, I had a conundrum.
The only person who I really cared about the way they saw me, who I wanted, almost needed, to have see me as beautiful and sexy, to desire and want me in my new changing body, had already stopped feeling that way for me. And so I was left to feel ugly and undesirable by no fault of anyone, and that has been fucking me up.
Mierin Jay-Lilan Fanucchi