@junosz @DrYohanJohn i think i must have washed out of all those scenes pretty early on. 😅​

maybe it's because my parents are pretty heavy on the control front & i've rebelled. mom still tries to make me be what she wants, and dad just can't tolerate any challenges to his view of himself. also i've had to face my own uncontrollability in the form of mental health issues (when ya can't get your brain to do what you want, even if you desperately want it to!).

plus, i live in the forest now, so uncontrollability is the name of the game. hawai'i has a funny way of dealing with people who come here and think that they can impose their vision on the land: it simply pushes them out. whether it's the jungle overgrowing their lawn, or the mosquitoes, or the loud coqui frogs, or the mold, the control freaks usually don't last long here. here, you pretty much learn that you have to work *with* the forces of nature rather than against them. because they're way more powerful than you are.

but i guess in places where nature has been kicked out more thoroughly (the centers of empire, etc.), it can be hard to remember who's really in charge (the land, the ocean, the sun, etc.).