EstelJul 31, 2023

If any #trans or #enby folxs out there had stories to share about your egg cracking ,(figuring out your gender) especially if it was a long or drawn out process id love to hear them.

(Had a day if going back and forth about whether or not im deluding myself in even trying. The versions of yall in my head were very good at dissuading me of that notion with kindness)

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Show threadMs. Bee-BopJul 31, 2023
@EverBeyondReach I took a long time to finally start. I knew in my early teens that I was different, not just that I was queer but I yearned to be a woman but I didn't have the language to describe it. I finally found the term transgender at 18 but never thought I could do it. I lived in a really rural area and was terrified. Plus the 90's and 00's Media didn't have any even neutral representation (I spent a lot of my childhood only having over the air TV)
Show threadMs. Bee-BopJul 31, 2023
@EverBeyondReach I started digging online and found resources but repressed everything. I fell into a really hard period of alcohol dependence until I had a partner who was supportive mention therapy. I even had an appointment with a student therapist through my college and quit drinking at 22. But the day of my appointment my appointment got canceled and I shoved myself into the closet. I hid until I was 28 got married and then got really depressed.
Show threadMs. Bee-BopJul 31, 2023

@EverBeyondReach it finally hit me that I was so sad because I wanted to have been the one in a wedding dress along with my former partner. I told her and she was (and still is) really supportive and I finally saw a therapist. I struggled for almost a year and finally started E just wanting to see if it helped (five years hrt last month) . It changed my world and I started Spiro three months later.

I took almost 8 months after that to be fully out.

Show threadMs. Bee-BopJul 31, 2023
@EverBeyondReach even then I was so nervous between starting hrt and coming out and I did it in stages until I was out every where but work. I was living a double life for a while working with hr to get everything set up for coming out at work. I finally did and was lucky to work with some amazing people who were so supportive. Ever since coming out at work four years ago I've become just more and more sure and know this is me, and who I always was.
Show threadMs. Bee-BopJul 31, 2023

@EverBeyondReach

tldr; it was scary at points and a long road, and with some hard things that have occurred iny life but at least I got to deal with them as me fully realized. For me transitioning was always what I needed to do and I love myself fully as the proud queer trans lady that I am.

Show threadEstel
@msBeeBop Well thank you for sharing!
Jul 31, 2023 at 11:50pmWeb
Show threadMs. Bee-BopAug 1, 2023
@EverBeyondReach awe im glad too, I know I struggled with it for a long time and others stories are what helped me finally commit to my own happiness.