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Adrienne Harper Jul 30, 2023

So far, today has been a relaxing and mildly dull day. Although I don't know how much of that dullness is brain fog that may or may not be based on #genderdysphoria from living in a male body. I still get #gendereuphoria from little things: waking up in dresses, public convenience stores recognizing me as female (despite being #prehrt ), swimming in a bra+panties+shaven body where it feels like I'm in my body for the first time, etc.

I'm ready for #HRT to arrive at my doorstep. I'm ready for the tit-tacs to overtake my body and give me the female form that I'm starting to crave. Once I feel the mental effects of HRT, I will know for 100% sure if #transition is right for me or if my doubts are #impostorsyndrome talking.

#mtf #musings #transgender #trans #transfemme #transfem #transfeminine #transfemale #transwoman

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mess of moss& ♾️🍞🧄️🌱Jul 30, 2023

@Meander1995 Cool that you enjoyed swimming! I haven't been swimming for a couple of years, and I just recently noticed that dysphoria probably was one of the main reasons. Like, I always felt so at unease in the male dressing rooms; but I also cover my chest at home, etc. Perhaps I should get a bra (I'm also before HRT), and with a bit of confidence I can try to go swimming again. This week I was camping, and I always used the women's bathrooms and showers; no one complained :-)

Starting laser hair removal was quite a relieve for me, but it's also so expensive (I pay 350€ for each monthly session (legs and face); next week is my fifth session); I even started with it before I was completely out to myself (cracked) as non-binary/trans-femme. Shaving really is annoying and often painful; I hope you don't get frustrated by it 💜

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Adrienne Harper

@maxine Yet to have a situation where I have gone to a women's bathroom. But when I do, I don't think I will be afraid after appearing in public. There are pockets in my town more tolerant of trans folk than in other sections. Fortunately, I live in the more liberal pockets.

I've always swam a bit, but I haven't ENJOYED doing it like now. It was a stuffed sports bra that makes me feel as though I have booba #preHRT .

Hair removal will be neat. But my hair's too light colored for laser to be effective, I think. So I'll probably have to either shave or electro in the future. And that's when I get a job in the next couple months (thank you job coaches). Legs are smooth as fuck. Face is just raggedy and snarly to shave.