One day I will declare war on RSD as a concept. My current frustration is that people who often have complex trauma attribute their behaviour to RSD instead.
(My general feeling is that RSD is better explained as prolonged exposure to childhood (& often adult) criticism that could be better explained as a less serious form of CPTSD).
Like these are the symptoms of CPTSD:
* difficulty controlling your emotions
* feeling very angry or distrustful towards the world
* constant feelings of emptiness or hopelessness
* feeling as if you are permanently damaged or worthless
* feeling as if you are completely different to other people
* feeling like nobody can understand what happened to you
* avoiding friendships and relationships, or finding them very difficult
@roryreckons I have CPTSD and it feels like I have to constantly prove to everyone that I deserve to exist.
It feels like everyone I meet "knows" I'm a bad person.
I can't forgive myself for my mistakes, and I invent new ones or exaggerate old ones to obsess over.
It feels like everyone in the world is in one giant group chat swapping notes about what a shit human I am.
I am perpetually consumed by shame.
Having a label didn't cure me but it sure as hell has helped.
Rory
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