I’m done pushing away people. I’m not going to let my stupid thoughts lead me to self-destructive behavior that destroys my connections. I’ve let that happen too many times, I’ve hurt myself, I’ve lost friends, and I’ve made it harder for me to connect with people and you know what? Fuck that, that was shitty behavior from me and I regret every second I did that. I’m sorry to anyone who I’ve hurt or given a bad impression of or anyone I’ve disappeared on or deleted accounts on. That wasn’t you, it was me, and fuck whatever in my brain thinks it is.