Robin 

Had my second date with that very sweet guy I met through bumble and it was really nice :3
We met up at the train station and then headed to a cat café to eat breakfast, after we took the underground to a small mall and windowed shopped a little it, then drove to a bigger mall and after that headed to a Pizzaria to eat some really amazing pizza!!

All in all, I am really happy with how our dates are going and I'm even happier that we take things slow! ^-^ We vibe really well together and I could see us potentially being in a committed relationship, but I don't wanna get ahead of myself. Taking things slow and steady :>

Jul 1, 2023 at 7:22pmWeb
Show threadRobin Jul 2, 2023

I have to admit though. After all the relationships I had, all the people I have dated and the more I understand and accept myself, the more confused I am confused with myself about how I actually experience "love".

Not too long ago, I would fall for someone I thought was nice in an instance and had the typical BPD "Favorite Person" thing going on. I was waiting for them to text me all day long and would've loved to text non-stop. But now? I feel calmer. While I still smile, when I see him text me, it's more so a "He thought of me, how cute" kind of feeling. And I feel like my feelings coming in slower. I don't have this instant "love" and "crave" I always had. Though that always makes me question whether I truly am falling for him, but then again, I can imagine myself spending a lot of time with them and doing normal couple things, but in a more adult way, if that makes sense and not the "teenage love" kind of way, I kind of craved (or at least thought so).

Show threadRobin Jul 2, 2023

But I also am questioning whether I may be on the aromantic spectrum for a while now. Maybe I'm actually gray- or demiromantic and my BPD just would never let me actually experience it, cause of the whole FP thing.

All I know is, that I want to continue dating this very sweet man. He's very kind and respectful and we vibe well together :] Plus, I can actually communicate with him, which is a huge plus! I may also tell him about my confusion soon. I think this is an important thing that I should discuss sooner than later with him.

Show threaddeunanJul 1, 2023
@xalv0s So excited for you! Fingers crossed <3
Show threadRobin Jul 1, 2023
@din Thank youuu <33