Wikked Storm (DJ Drewcifer)@DudleyStokes I'm glad I'm not the only one who believes this. I had the added joy of pentecostal being sprinkled on top thanks to my grandmother.
Dudley Stokes@wikkedstorm I’ve been thinking a lot about my upbringing in evangelical household. I gotta talk more to my therapist about it… my parents are freaking awesome. The genuinely are wonderful people. My mother (who got indoctrinated by my grandparents when she was a child) was the big Bible beater in the house hold. Let me tell you she is an absolute saint. She has a bleeding heart for the less fortunate and truly cares. She was only doing what she thought was right…
@wikkedstorm …but things as simple as Pokémon, Harry Potter were the devil and not allowed in the household. Shit, I couldn’t even go trick or treating because even that is too evil. So, as I grew up I found that all my interests (Pokémon, heavy metal music) needed to be hidden and away from sight.
Is it no wonder that now, in my older age, all my current passions and hobbies I’m afraid of sharing it with ANYONE? Parents, friends otherwise?
@wikkedstorm and I can’t really tell you why I have the feeling…. Like, I feel— genuinely feel it in my core— that the things that excite me these days should be hidden. I feel ashamed of my passions and hobbies these days. I wonder if that has to do, in part, with being shamed for being interested in things when I was younger out of fear of it being “the devil.”
Anyways, sorry to go on a tangent here lol. Mastodon has become my persona journal.
@DudleyStokes it's cool. And yes, being shamed for something as a child can get stuck in your head as an adult. I had to break that conditioning myself. It was tough, but the funny thing is, when that conditioning broke, I saw the world in a whole new light, and realized just how manipulative organized religions are.
@wikkedstorm that latter part, I have very much seen and experienced myself through family problems and my “familys” response to it. Anyways, thanks for entertaining my dribble for a little bit. Hope I can breakthrough that conditioning myself soon.
@DudleyStokes you are well on your way just realizing it is there. You just need to start telling yourself No when you hear that voice in your head telling you to hide and be ashamed.