Thinking more about feelings of finiteness and productivity and disappointment

I think maybe more than to-do lists sometimes what I need is a did-do list, like writing out everything I ended up doing because sometimes it's a lot and then because trauma/brainweirdness/other sources of memory problems I just

don't know I did it

So for example I was down in the frumps about how little I got done this weekend and, like, I thought about it hard and realized "wait a second, yesterday I powered through the entire intro to logic and computability textbook that other lecturers use at [community college] and took a bunch of notes, wrote down a sketch of how one could low-key introduce some category theory to smooth out the connections between topics, and found a fun paper on the categorical semantics of hoare logic" and then I was like "wait, this morning I literally spent several hours on a talk I'm giving next week"

and, dear reader, when I made that post about how frustrated I was I'd literally forgotten that these things had happened

this problem affects more than just my morale, too, because I've definitely had times where I rediscover some big body of work I'd actually just memory-holed that I'd done

so, yeah, maybe I need to make a habit of writing down what I did each day before I got to bed and actually reading it the next morning before I do anything else