Of all the shitty things that happened to me pre-transition, the mistreatment by mental health "professionals" has been the one with the longest term consequences.

Everything else is water under the bridge for me post-transition, but therapy is just not an option for me because I can't trust a mental health professional. Even the guy that signs my letters, who is amazingly affirming, there is no way I could open up to him to help deal with the crises I go through occasionally.

This past week as been a nightmare for me mentally and I just don't have any strategies to deal with it other than shut down and hope I get through it. Been having incredibly violent nightmares which I haven't had for 4-5 years. I would love to have a way to reduce the impact and length of the crises, but therapy is basically closed to me.