I don't regret my doctorate. I don't.

But if I had everything to do over again, I would *never* get a PhD.

It narrows your options in ways you'd never imagine. But that's not why.

The process of getting a PhD--at least, at this point in time--is inherently abusive. It's cruel. And it demands that you accept the abusiveness, the capriciousness, the lack of control over your own life and your own destiny, as both appropriate and inevitable. That you internalize the abuse and perpetrate it against yourself, without end. That service to others is everything, that you don't deserve time to yourself, that you never,ever deserve a vacation from your work, that your only human value is in whatever knowledge you have--knowledge which is constantly devalued and denigrated by others.

The PhD process is nothing short of hazing.

I love teaching at university. It is a great joy in my life. But it wasn't worth the price of admission, and I can never get off of this ride now.

Think twice before you walk this path.

@Impossible_PhD *offers supportive hugs* 

@SleepyCatten This message brought to you by me feeling guilty about needing to take time off in October *for my vow renewal, which I've been planning for three years*.

When I have almost *four months* of time off banked.

Because academic culture says it's Wrong to take time off.

@Impossible_PhD @SleepyCatten I feel you on this, I have to drag myself out of work sometimes. I work in the public sector, and definitely get the feeling that I'm failing by taking time off.
@Impossible_PhD @SleepyCatten Also a side point to that: I've been part of organising strike action unofficially, and it's a big feel people get/management try to play on.

@twofirstnames @SleepyCatten I mean, where I work, were allowed to have a union, but we're literally not allowed to strike.

By law.

@Impossible_PhD @SleepyCatten what the heck. (I mean the Tories are trying to make that the case for government workers too, sooooo)

@twofirstnames @SleepyCatten Yep. When my union tried to strike, the admin had a lawyer waiting at the courthouse. The judge issued a summary judgment on the spot, ordering us back to the classroom.

Our work stoppage lasted less than three hours.

@Impossible_PhD @SleepyCatten We had civil servants, teachers, university staff, paramedics, train engineers, all on strike the other week.