I had the realization yesterday that, to me, the emotional changes from HRT were both a bit over-hyped and better than I could have ever hoped for...
I don't feel amazing or euphoric all the time, or even all that often. I feel pretty normal.
And that's FUCKING AMAZING!
Like, WTF?!? You mean most people feel this way all the time? They actually feel things? And then process those emotions? You mean they aren't all living their lives in 3rd person like in a video game? 🤯
@faithisleaping Same, same 
I only recently came across common symptoms of depersonalisation & recognised many of them from throughout my life, particularly from my teenage years onwards.
E.g.,
• Feeling like an outside observer of thoughts, feelings, body etc.
• Feeling like a robot.
• Emotional/physical numbness to the world around me.
• A sense that memories lack emotion or that they aren't your memories.
@SleepyCatten @faithisleaping OMG this so SOOO much!! Like I told my therapist:
"I know happiness. I know how others act when happy and can also act that way. I see the happiness in the room with me and can describe it's form and shape. I can react to the happiness in the room. But the emotion is over *there*. I am aware of it, that is all."
Then on E I would suddenly *feel* emotions. They were not *in* the room…I *became* the room. That was fucking wild!!
Faith 
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