I have a tendency to get melancholic around this time of year. Like a lot of other people.

I'm questioning what I'm even doing, and what I even can do. Like, is there anything that would really leave me feeling content for longer than a couple days?

If I got a well paying job? Unlikely. It'd probably be something immoral and break my spirit too. Not very interested.

If I finished writing a book and got it published? It'd feel good for a while, if it was popular, and then I'd probably lose any satisfaction over time.

I guess I do good activist-y things sometimes, but it's all just such a drop in the bucket.

I'm also not making much progress on the romance front, and probably won't be able to until February because I need such specific stuff.

Maybe if I became an author with a small cult following and community which I could interact with. That sounds nice. Not sure how likely it is.

Anyway, here's to 2023 I guess, lol. It's probably just the time of year that's got me down.