Atlantisblauw

I'm not very motivated to do anything atm. Every day I think tomorrow I'm really going to do all these things on my to do list, but it doesn't happen. Usually I do a few things though, so it could be worse.

I'm a little stressed about some stuff and my brain is doing the freeze thing again. Hate it when that happens.

Dec 22, 2022 at 8:52amWeb
Show threadAtlantisblauwDec 22, 2022

I'm stressed about life. The whole idea of having to balance work, volunteer work, study, friends, hobbies, everything. All the expectations, all those things that need to be done just to keep yourself alive and healthy. Sometimes it feels exciting, sometimes I just want to scream. Even things I enjoy sometimes feel scary, suddenly.

Probably because I'm adding work hours, going from two to three days now (trying to get back to 40 hours a week, it's going to take a while).

Show threadAtlantisblauwDec 22, 2022
Also stressed because the whole medical experience reminded me of the fact that I'm not happy with my career choices. I've been suffering from depression from age 12 to 37. I didn't have the energy in school to do homework, and I only studied English because it was easy for me. I didn't have the opportunity then to figure out what I wanted. Then later I thought studying something else was impossible, too expensive, I'd be too old once I'm finished etc. I don't really know how to fix it yet.
Show threadRammoDec 22, 2022
@atlantisblauw I’m sorry to hear this and hope you find some spark soon. It is so tiring being unwell. I only hope finding new norms in eating, nutrition and exercise may help find a way.
Show threadMarianne SmedingDec 22, 2022
@atlantisblauw
Naar voor je, bah.
Show threadMirellaDec 22, 2022
@atlantisblauw Good luck. I constantly try and be happy with the things done and not sad and stressed about the rest. But it’s hard.
Show threadEganDec 22, 2022
@atlantisblauw You got motivated enough to post this, so that’s something. 😀