She asked me what I thought me + Ritalin/Adderall could do that me without foreign substances in my body couldn't do.

I thought it would be a step forward since I am heavily dependent on caffeine to even function with multiple energy drinks, coffee, and soda all being necessary for me to focus enough to perform my day job and said that I felt that a supervised dosage of stimulants had to be better for my health than self-applied legal stimulants with no direction...

Needless to say, she disagreed and immediately moved to "What if we worked to make it so that you don't need any stimulants?" which felt a lot like she was denying my personal experience...

I have tried going caffeine-free and it gets really bad, like missing appointments and failing in my obligations to people that I care about bad... All sense of time goes right out the window and everything I do seems to become special interest directed... It's not good...

@Boardinthelibrary Nothing as drastic as turning to Christianity, she is a Buddhist and understands that a lot of my major hang-ups are from my Catholic up-bringing...

She seems very anti-medicine (including of course big pharma) so much so that the mere suggestion of looking into medicine resulted in her suggesting that we should instead be moving in the other direction and look to start removing anything that I am currently using to manage things...