I got a message on tumblr from someone who was pitching my second artbook to their discord chat, their intent being they hoped it would show how much my art means to them and I actually burst into tears reading through it
I cannot emphasize how much I create for myself first and foremost, and that's the way I've always been. I could never show my art to anyone and be content. And so I'm in a constant state of being amazed that other people love and enjoy my art to such an extent.
Its not that I don't think what I do is good, its just that other people engaging with it isn't in my mind at all when creating. The only exceptions being paid work or art I'm creating as a gift for others. My thought process behind posting stuff is usually a very casual "well I like seeing other people's art, so maybe other people will like to see mine" so I'm just...really flattered, I dont know how else to say it