MarcoAs I learn and reflect more and more on myself and how my life has been, one thing I am noticing that many stereotypical gender traits don‘t apply to me, and never have. I have always known that I am bisexual, possibly even pansexual, althrough except for one instance, I lack the physical experience to back that up. I find people sexually and romantically attractive, not their genders. In that, I am even more fluid than many other bisexuals I know, especially CIS men.
One other thing is that the way I feel doesn‘t fit with what the majority of other fellow biological y-chromosome cariers describe to me in conversations, or how they act towards others. I do find traits in me that are „typical male“, but also find a lot of traits that are „typical female“ ones. My partner, biological female and to her knowledge so far heterosexually oriented, feels the same about herself, and how she perceives me. So, we may both somehow qualify as NB I guess.
That doesn‘t change much in our daily lives, we are both still comfortable with the male pronouns for me and female ones for her, part of the reason being that in German, gendered nouns and verb building is a much more painful business than in English, and many such language constructs simply hurt our 50 year old autistic brains too much. 😊
The biggest takeaway for me is simply the relief over the fact that in today‘s society, especially among younger people, there is room for this fluidity. That‘s why I am also comfortable sharing this with y‘all here today.