I've been having little impulses of motivation to update my website again, since it is very stale, and a javascript banner that I set up for the purpose loudly declares it to be so.

Taking a step back and thinking,

What am I?

What has been the deliverable from my existence? What am I to strangers, other than what I have written?

What do I want to express?
Do I like this collection of writing?
Do I want it to represent me?
What value is there in expressing myself if I'm not very unique, or accomplished, or interesting?

I keep thinking "maybe no, maybe none" and that I should replace my personal homepage with a spinning beachball or similar. Embrace that I am one instance among billions and build the appropriate site for that which may be none at all.

But I'm reminded of the time that I bumped into an old colleague and one of the first things he said to me was how much he liked that zany writing about impossibly ambitious project ideas, that I was thinking of deleting even then. Huh.

What to do.