There are two sides to the idea of "killing the cop in your head," both of which are essential.

The first is a practice of self-love and self-reflection: to "kill" those parts of an overactive ego that police your thoughts to your own detriment. Practices like cognitive behavioral therapy fall into this space.

The second is a critical analysis of a specific mental model: to "kill" your mental image of what a cop is or should be, ala death of the author, and come to terms with the realities of their behavior and the institution. This entails the study critical theory and studies and requires giving survivors the benefit of the doubt.

How far along each journey are you? Have you started either one?