if anyone was curious and wanted to know what happened.. here’s the short of it: i left my fiancé of five years for a lot of reasons. i didn’t love him anymore and there were certain.. kinks of his i found out about and was uncomfy with.
it tore me apart. i hated myself. just before i realized i had to leave, i found out my friend died. that, paired with the kink that made me hate myself.. i just stopped eating.
i was eating 800 or less calories a day, but i didn’t realize it. i just. wasn’t hungry. i was too depressed.
i reconnected with an old friend due to the death of my other friend, and we kind of hit it off in a romantic way. he lived in texas. everything was scary and i didn’t know what to do.
it hurt, but i left my ex and flew to texas to see my.. friend. we’re together now, and i live in texas.
all in all, i lost a very long relationship and 74lbs. i still struggle to eat normally because of how this behavior changes your brain. my boyfriend tries to help but it’s hard. i’m terrified to gain weight now because of.. things my ex did.
tl;dr: got depressed, left a relationship & gave myself an eating disorder on accident then moved across the country. and scene.
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