Why do I only recognize self destructive behavior as such at the tail end of it? Because I was lonely these last few weeks started to isolate myself more and more from friends and family.
@glow Because that's a common human trait? (Many people don't even recognize it ever, not even in hindsight... so you're one of the lucky ones who have at least the potential to get better at recognizing it earlier and then getting better at working against it.)