@glitterwitch I can't work at all, & adjusting to that over the years has been pretty awful. Have had to do a lot work on myself to deal with guilt, stigma etc, including counseling. I am incredibly privileged by having both partners in work, I live with one so have secure housing & was able to get welfare benefits. I know how lucky I am but am also constantly anxious as I could loose my benefits at any time & it's my only independent income.