I work 2-4 days a week at various gigs. I rely on my parents for big financial things and my partner for housing. I struggle daily with the guilt of not being independent or productive enough. I've been trying to reframe it in my mind through both disability and anarchist perspectives but it's really hard and scary because I have to rely so much on other ppl and I've been burned before. I hate watching my cohort thrive in traditional jobs while i struggle to work 12hr weeks. I need a lot of down time and spend most of it on the internet, doing small projects, or in the garden when I can.

@glitterwitch since i started getting really bad manic episodes i haven't been able to work full time or at anywhere near the same mental load i used to be able to work. so, now i'm working about 16 hours a week selling groceries, and lucky enough to have a job that lets me spend another 10-12 hours a week just playing on the computer and occassionaly doing lil projects. it doesn't pay well (like a 10th of what i was making) but most of the time it feels good to have at least something