I've been saying this but get hobbies, be HORRID at those hobbies. Don't worry about being bad, you're gonna be bad at atleast one thing and that's okay. It's okay to be bad at hobbies as long as they make you happy. I have things I love and when I'm depressed I WANT to fight that depression so I can do what I love. I write poetry, music, stories, I play games and write plays and design costumes and plan RPGs and I like to sew and alter clothes and make things. Be yourself, and unashamed.