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I just feel really shit about my place in the world and the people around me, like I feel so achingly alone all the goddamn time
My RSD (I overreact to bad things but with chemicals to go along with it) gets triggered by the smallest fucking things and I just feel like absolute shit
And its no ones fault but my brains, I just kinda have to deal with it
And its no ones fault but my brains, I just kinda have to deal with it
Just imagine if a friend cancelling plans felt like your pet died. That's kinda what RSD is like, not that extreme but since I don't rlly have a point of reference to how bad smth should feel its hard to explain
I can't just brush things off if that makes sense, the wrong tone of voice or a look can ruin my entire day because it'll make me immediately feel like shit
And so being able to keep friends is so fucking hard for me, either someone feels too fake or they trigger my RSD too much. There is an in between but most people fall into one or the other after a while no matter what I do to stop it.
I should clarify its how I process their social interaction, not how the person is.
I should clarify its how I process their social interaction, not how the person is.
Its kind of the same with relationships but with those I tend to dig my heals in and stay probably longer than I should in fear of not being able to find another person
Sorry ik no one wants to read a fucking essay on Monday night but it just kinda helps I guess
merc@casperillion
um, i randomly saw this. sorry i'm a stranger. but, wow, that really sucks. i am so so sorry. that sounds horrible to go through 😣
um, i randomly saw this. sorry i'm a stranger. but, wow, that really sucks. i am so so sorry. that sounds horrible to go through 😣
@yaaaskuza ty my good dude
im fruity now@casperillion i know you dont know me but if you wanna talk im always free
@geniee hey thanks I appreciate the sentiment 