I somehow managed to make it through the entire process of writing and editing my current novel without any of the usual despair or doubt or just hating the story in general... until just now.

In related news: five minutes ago, I sent the manuscript to the last beta reader.

@joereddington That's definitely part of it. But it also makes the story feel "real" for the first time. Someone other than me is going to read it, and judge it. (Which... is the point. But still.)