idk what is wrong with me but frankenstein wasnt that fun of an experience. maybe if i reread it next year and get magically used that specific style of prose. maybe then?? but it just felt more bearable than reading dracula bcs i dont think modern plot really prepared me for dracula. all i felt in drac was immense impatience that the pacing never seems to have picked up anywhere.. even when lives were at risk. it was unsatisfactory as hell.

or maybe its just time to accept that ive grown old and some stuff will not be revolutionary to me. also i feel like the frankenstein movie wasnt. well it did teach me a few things but also felt different from the text which just made me feel okay? id delve deeper but it just didnt provoke anything in me. i get the themes (when its pointed out to me but it inspires awe only then :(( ) jane eyre, however, left me shooketh. (and i have no particular preference for romances, im actually not a huge fan of those) i thought classics wouldnt have an effect on me but jare eyre i could relate on such a personal level even tho the prose was just as acrid, it was perfect somehow. its not that it didnt have boring parts its just frankenstein couldnt make me care any more for victor but jane? oh i was fully invested. the moral struggle.. retaining your integrity bit spoke to me. frankenstein just felt a lot like grand proclamations and just a lot of sentimentality. the characters were barely there. i couldnt love these people so i didnt feel anything for any of them

characterisation is so important to me because if you leave it to me to fill the blanks and attach traits like flesh and blood to your blorbo, you best believe ill let them live as blank spaces in my head  idk why my reading experience is like that. some characters are real to me and some are decidedly not but it really impacts how i interact with the text

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I wanted to remember what I was doing in the beginning of the year because I seemed to have watched the first ep of an anime or two before I went off to the manga and then the exam happened amd two months just passed me by like that. anyway finally someone getting how bad amelia can get on a person's nerves with her pompous and self assured attitude. this scene was much needed. both constance and the readers blood has been boiling due to her for a good while  mylene making the resolution to drive out amelia from mayflower (famous newspaper publisher) by getting a job there was such a good development too. shes been seriously thinking about seeking employment ever since constance pointed out that her enthusiasm for gossip could be better served as a reporter (which has an interesting angle of a noble lady seeking employment when that was not the norm then. even abigail, influential as she is, operates under her husband's name  )

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watched ep one of tamons b-side and immediately realised i need more of that guy. i was expecting the manga to be a lil more slowly paced but the anime has more breathing room compared to what i can only describe as one thing happening right after another, theyre out here thinking: set up, contextualisation,, who da heck is that?! figure shit out on the go :'Dd im not complaining, the sucky wucky pathetic moments are done absolutely perfectly. i need more of this self deprecative or depressive humour i see in tamons lamentation in my life because the joy it sparks is.. absolute and undiluted

#TamonsBSide #TamonKunImaDocchi #maereads

"Glatman’s case served as the real-life basis for Mary Higgins Clark’s bestselling novel Loves Music, Loves to Dance, which—as the title suggests—deals with the sometimes perilous world of the personals."

going thru the a to z encyclopedia for serial killers (cant believe we have such useful encyclopedias!  ) and i cant believe this random ass book i read bcs of it being mentioned in a reddit post would have such origins. i had no idea that ads were a prominent way to murder ppl  

i dont rec the book however. going into spoiler territory here,, i accidentally ended up guessing the killer based on who was acting the most normal and unrealistically perfect but it (suspense factor) works in a sense, you wouldnt expect the professional who deals with the mind to harbour such tendencies. it wasnt a good read since it felt kinda dated

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i finished the last forty chapters of this wasnt my plan and while i really really liked the beginning and how they confronted the problematic morality of interacting with someone who wronged you most heinously before you went back in time, the ending didnt leave me quite as satisfied (were they expecting that the romance and the butterfly moments would work as the payoff or something? i mean it was nice but idk maybe my expectations were to be blamed, i enjoyed their relationship, it is fun but im never quite sated with it being a relationship because i just see them falling back into previously drawn patterns but eh maybe its nothing. its the classic the beginning is just too refreshing compared to the tail end altho they managed to do a pretty good job at it) it was nuanced and gave a pretty accurate depiction of how trauma works and warps us (action taken is still wrong obviously) but i liked how the tackled all this complex stuff and didnt botch anything. it does suffer a bit from having things too easy but ig thats plot armour coming from roas past experience from her prior life. while I dont quite agree on the romantic route but they did manage to redeem the guy so effective writing. love that it didnt entirely focus on what a supportive role roa (mc) had taken on as a manager but gradually shifted so she would persue something for herself (starting an agency). is narratively nice that it aligned with their overall interest. is a pretty good read, i heard it belongs to a shared universe so im kinda interested to see what other ones are out there (after it finally gets translated, or it already has, havent been keeping up with the manhwa space in years after all)

#manhwa #webtoon #ThisWasntMyPlan #maereads

read hunger by choi jin-young on a whim (flashy cover helped and the hundred page count definitely helped finish it faster, so glad i started my morning with reading  ) its not very revolutionary id say and definitely does not deliver on its initial premise but its more of a slowly unfolding horror story abt what it like living in the current times with capitalism and class inequality and unfairness in general. id say the situation with Dam consuming her beloved isnt an act of not letting death take him or letting the earth reclaim him but more of an act of making sure that his body isnt further used to serve the ends of the loansharks because they sure as hell would butcher him up and sell him for parts and truly maximise the profit they could get out of his death

it got me introduced to the term necropolitics so not a bad exchange overall

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reading a bit of twilight poem/heeran love song and dang it ended with just sixty chapters? i thought itd drag for way longer,, thats way too easy for me catch up 

also the angst does not miss but ive revisited a few chapters quite extensively so the horrors have stopped hitting quite as hard (didnt tear up like previous times but that was a year or two ago)

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just got back to this gem (i clicked randomly and found myself in the valentines day chocolate arc even though its not really an arc) and its just  ive missed this series 

#GekkanShoujoNozakiKun #MonthlyGirlsNozakiKun #gsnk #manga #maereads

yay another elon musk book i gotta read ( this being my second rodeo is not concerning at all, i am, simply put, utterly fascinated,, might even be a better read than character limit itself. which was kinda tedious ngl  like gilded rage is simply just too good of a title, might have read it for that pun alone  )

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