fun fact about me: in college, i was named, unsolicited, an honorary lesbian by a few founding members of a local coven.

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@theogrin For so long, I truly boggled at the idea that Ranma would bother changing back. "You're a gorgeous redhead girl!"

The idea that he did not feel "right" in the girl body never occurred to me.

The idea that that should tell me something about myself never occurred to me.

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Had the random memory of like a decade and a half ago when I saw The Vagina Monologues and then wrote a play called The Penis Dialog that was two guys in lazy boys watching a sports game and talking about stuff and it started out making fun of emotions and slowly drifted into talking about how they weren’t allowed to show emotions, and about toxic masculinity in general, and about how they should be able to be themselves and eventually one of the guys comes out and the other thinks he’s gay andis not cool but going with it, but then eventually realizes the other guys is a Trans woman and it gets super heated and he punches her in the stomach and tells her to get the fuck out of there and she leaves, crying, and he goes back to watching the game and mumbling “freak.” And that was the end.

It was 10 years before I came out to myself. #thereWereNoSigns

I mean I have green and purple hair.

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Like, most days I could leave work, swap my boots for converse and throw on a hat, and then just go.

My version of high femme slutty was so borderline skater punk already that looking back in hindsight is actually somewhat embarrassing.

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The funny thing is that there are actually very few changes to my normal wardrobe that would be necessary for me to fully lean into a skater punk aesthetic. #ThereWereNoSigns

Okay, coming out of FFS recovery, I’m seriously trending skater punk and it’s weird to me. But it SHOULDN’T be weird.

Like, I was literally a skater punk girl in high school (or at least as close to skater punk girl that a boy-shaped skater punk person could get in 80s steel town NY without being murdered) so this shouldn’t come as a surprise to me. Nothing should be a surprise.

I’m starting a new punk band and playing Sleater-Kinney and Mary’s Danish songs. My wife’s present to me for my 40th birthday was a longboard. I literally play roller derby. It’s almost a #ThereWereNoSigns type thing at this point.

So why does this feel like I’m coming out as skater punk?

Looking at anime sets on Blu-ray, and seeing Ranma 1/2.

Thinking back to watching the show wayyyy back, thoughts in my head like "Gosh, I wish that were possible, and so simple!"

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I've had longer hair before, but never this long.

I had
no qualms about being 'misgendered' as a lady when someone would approach me from behind, back when I was cosplaying as a dude. Hell, it gave me butterflies. #ThereWereNoSigns