Taking a short hiatus.
I can finally try and own this brain’s neurodivergence. All others in the system have. I was always going to be last there too.
But the intersection of that with what sure as shit looks like I intentionally incinerated my own concept of psychological time: passage, duration, position
Well, I just need to reflect for a bit.
Owl is around.
A Bunch of Oaks Had a Day ™️
I think the bullshit is over. And I have things to own too.
I cannot place any value on *my* ability to understand the passage of position within time.
Duration of time loses meaning each time I sleep.
I only know ordering and only by ordering symbols instead of time itself.
No fucking wonder people wonder what the fuck I yammer about at times.
Dinner last night, today, and the sun swallowing the earth are all equidistant to me.
Anyway to try and go back to sleep at 4a or dig deeper academically into the symbol sets to try and see what may be going on for the one affected, which is not me for once.
Wild stuff at the literal edge of all existence.
Hell of a story, Venya and myself and any others in this lot willing will need a good decade to get it all out.
Did a fair bit of academic-esque looking into the vast symbols and symbol sets of this dissociative system to see what to keep and what to reframe.
Heh, the scholar gentleman from the job and industry we got to exit was right
Who the fuck knows how many names I’ve given myself, my part-self, over the four decades.
Sub-roles of my prime role.
But all me. Me. Not fragments nor fusions.
I’m that wacky morphing final boss inside the morphing boss.
Artemis is more than fine though.
And the reality is when a dissociative system was thought impossible tier. LITERAL FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE TIER
Standard hashtag won't cut it as it can't be filtered without less horrific manifestations being thrown out too.
And yeah, I won't silence my true family on it either, so we'll just do what we can so that one filter can replace who fucking knows number of mutes.
Best we can do.
I've agonized greatly as to how to share our shared story and literally will never be pulled off again in any direction in external space-time gymnastics.
But at the end of the day, it's the same. Give a good shot at agency for those that do or don't wish to consume. The subject matter itself is the subject matter itself.
Best I can do. Not doing anything cheats others. Not sharing the story via the continuation of the Oak Song Cycle
cheats us
cc: @venya ^ 🧵
#VoidReclamation
Going to try and stick in #OakDID when touching subjects that are the Big Fucking Reason wandering around aimlessly with #DID is actually Not Great and a failure of society and of course the monsters that tend to create such a manifestation for a brain.
The reason is, there is zero fucking way to sugar coat the condition. There are actually consequences for everything I just described.
But agency is important, but I literally cannot fit enough words into any CW to satisfy beyond the usual.
🦁 Huntress: Rhea-Artemis