I wonder if I can just surrender myself. Hah, I'd be like Paddington in the second movie. A bear that went to jail.

I guess it is Paddington that keeps me from actually going totally insane. He's been in jail, I haven't been in one. I have no excuse to be thinking like this. I should be thankful I'm free

Idk. I guess when I'm fed up with human civilization, I'll free myself from here and live in the forest like my forebears did. Day by day it's getting more appealing though

People go insane if they have nobody to talk to in a long while. I guess that's why people "make friends" with AI. They confide with it as if it's a real person. Pretty cringe but eh. I don't really care about what people do with their time.

I'd rather just work with my hands, do my job and have nobody to talk to for the rest of my life

Deep down though, I'd rather be locked up in solitary so I don't have to worry about my parents, about anything.

Idk. I haven't made long coherent thoughts like these in a long long while. It's only been 2.5 weeks but that span of time feels like 2.5 months for me.

Time flows like honey when you're not terminally online, when you don't have friends and all you do from time to time are side gigs. I bet if I had a real job, time would be very very slow.

I really wish people are nice but I've given up on that idea. I just assume people have some kind of agenda that makes them act that way, even mental health professionals

I'll keep doing my stuff though. I don't have a problem having fun in parties but between having a party and talking to people or reading a book alone, I'd rather sleep.

No amount of pure coffee, cold baths, spicy treats or water being thrown at me's enough to wake me up. The heat of the sun does wake me up though

I only ever got interested with batteries because of oil prices. Something to distract myself with from the madness because I haven't really had any friends for 6 years and coming and I don't really have a presence on the web, nor people care about me that what I say matters, idk.

I believe I'm better off alone though. I'm not really friendly, nor do I have any words to say to other people. It feels disingenuous to keep saying "cool", "oooh, scary/awesome/interesting" etc

Oh yeah I noticed battery enthusiasts are also flashlight enthusiasts. Frankly I haven't got a need for flashlights cos I can see in the dark. I'm a bear lol.

But I need fans so I can lie down on the couch without waking up just to drink water or take a piss. Don't like AC's cos those make me sleepy.

Anyways I'mma stream for a little. i haven't streamed in 2 weeks !

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It just sucks you cant use Fusion Cores as grenades that explode like mini nukes in Fallout 76 like in Fallout 4 lol. There's no nuclear physicist in 76.

Maybe if I spend more time with the 18650's, I might actually be able to make a makeshift grenade out of the 48 18650 cells I have in storage lolololol.

https://fallout.wiki/wiki/Nuclear_Physicist

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I read higher capacity cells trade cycles but it'll be a while till I notice, plus, I also have a pair of these too. I bought em when I was new to 18650's, like less than a week new

It'll be like what I do with fusion cores in Fallout 76 when I use Power Armor. Charge up the drained cores on the fusion core recharger, chuck in the fully charged ones on the armor and it's good for a long while.

https://www.18650batterystore.com/products/molicel-p28a

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