Once a teacher told me , never ending to training your body, your mind even if you can be judged a stupid by people in average, you still it in do it. Now I understood.
I was out for long time and i have seen a lot of users gone, honestly i don't know anything about them, except that they was trying to live as best as they love , without hurting noone. Peace and love it was their concepts of live. I hope you are stilling to be safe. Sincerily.