through a queer len

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cat wrangler. crafty.
I write some (a lot of) music.
"len" and "lenny" are both good :)

love me long-winded or don't love me at all.

also I'm still coviding and you should be, too

music mostly marked under #lennySings if you want to follow it here, or @lenny_wonders on youtube.

https://linktr.ee/lenny_wonders

I am just a pile of impossible questions, held together by spit and duct tape and hope that flickers on and off, on and off, on and off.

pronounsthey/them
profile picwhite person in their mid-30s smiles at the camera at the wharf. They're wearing an envo respirator and aviator sunglasses.
banner pictag from an axolotl plushie. It says "kind of cute, kind of ugly, sorta weird, but oh so snuggly"
ko-fihttps://ko-fi.com/lenny_wonders
linktreehttps://linktr.ee/lenny_wonders
through a queer len21h ago

ohhhh...this is why "two points for honesty" has been my obsession song this week, huh?

"I never knew 'til someone told me that"--a lyric I related to many years before I had ever heard the word "neurodivergent" lol

through a queer len2d ago

I keep thinking about the use of the word "swoon." And also of, uh. "needy."

I know that most of you are laughing at me for being a useless queer right now but also last time that happened y'all were wrong so. *clearly my strategy of infinite skepticism is the correct one.*

I am always right. People should listen to me more often 😂

through a queer len2d ago

it irritates me so fucking much that a person can basically wait me out into loving them 😂 🙃

I do NOT ACCEPT this cheat code. pfft.

Show threadthrough a queer len2d ago

what if, instead of stretching my body and doing the thing that makes me feel good and taking care of myself, I panic and wind myself up about this thing that I could probably have if I were less of a goddamned motherfucking disaster?

fuck 🙃

it is so late. I have gotten so little sleep. been moving mountains at work.but I feel like such a wreck and a shell and a disaster and I just want to go with loud music and BLAH instead of thoughtful softening.

gonna continue to resist like the recalcitrant fucking child I am 🙃 :P

Show threadthrough a queer len2d ago
I want many things but most of all I want to want nothing
through a queer len2d ago
someday love won't feel like a crisis...right??
through a queer len3d ago
Was having anxiety about being enough of a regular to be recognizable but the barista definitely thought my name was Noem lol
Show threadthrough a queer len4d ago

I think I am mostly just... Really fucking incapacitatingly scared of hurting somebody. That's just about the long and the short of it, as per usual.

What if I fuck everything up and hurt somebody? 🙃

There are so many ways to cause harm even when you are trying so hard.

Ugh.

Show threadthrough a queer len4d ago
@jmeowmeow yessss that is a good friend to have though haha
through a queer len4d ago

is it flirting if they say that listening to me play music makes them swoon though?

is that even information even if it is?? sometimes people flirt and it doesn't mean anything, it's just words.

people are complicated

...also it would be a lot easier if I knew if I wanted it to be flirting or not 🙃 fucking. uggggh.