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The War against Withdrawals 💉🩸
Most people dont understand just how terrible the withdrawal process is...I see it everyday at work at a detox facility, and I've lived through it many MANY times...People who’ve never lived it don’t understand the true power of addiction or the sickness of withdrawal. From the outside, it looks exaggerated. Dramatic. Like something people should just “push through.” But it is real, more real than words can fully capture.
Lat e Night Talks at Work
I love so much the nurses that I can actually talk to about my past and my battles without feeling judged or "less than" or just generally weird. Last night, my nurse and I spent the majority of the 12 hr shift with her asking me questions about how addicts think and why we do and say the things that we do.
https://welcome2mymindblog.wordpress.com/2025/12/04/lat-e-night-talks-at-work/
I’ve Been There
It breaks my heart when at work we have people come all the way out here to do AA and NA meetings, and none of the patients go. Not even one. Those people took time away from their holiday season to try to be of service, and the patients could not care less.I know that they don't feel good and are going through withdrawals, but if you care enough about your recovery than you should Fight for it.
https://welcome2mymindblog.wordpress.com/2025/12/04/ive-been-there/
A Borderline Mind
Walking around at work feeling like everybody is talking shit about me 24/7 just because they looked at me and are judging every thing that I do which I know is just the borderline personality disorder talking, but knowing and actually being able to control/stop it are two Completely different things… It's just all so exhausting. My emotions switch about as often as a stop light.
https://welcome2mymindblog.wordpress.com/2025/10/25/a-borderline-mind/
Feeling Lost
This may sound shallow and stupid, but im still really fucking depressed about my old Facebook getting hacked then basically deleted...I had 9.5 thousand followers and got over 300k views per month. Besides the heartbreaking memories (photos, videos), you lost SO much more....It may sound sad, but i had "fans" (so to speak) who followed my journey and cheered me on, and honestly, it was a HUGE part of my inspiration and recovery...
https://welcome2mymindblog.wordpress.com/2025/10/11/feeling-lost/
Reminder to Handle with Care
I can't explain what borderline personality disorder has done to my life... It's being scared to make eye contact with people because you think they are going to see something dark in you and get freaked out. It's being paranoid when you're walking past a group of people thinking that they HAVE to be talking about you. And obviously, they have to be talking shit.
https://welcome2mymindblog.wordpress.com/2025/10/10/reminder-to-handle-with-care/
A Checkup On My Borderline Personality Disorder 🖤
“Recovery”
Hey it's me, I'm back again.We used to be the best of friends.You first met me, then fell in love.You couldn't seem to get enough. That very first time was unforgettable,Yet it seemed to also be unachievable.But still, you would try and you would try-To replace that very first high;No matter how many people said "goodbye."
~☆*Happy 18 months clean to me!*☆~ ❤️🩹✨️
I decided to post this a little early just because it's weighing heavy on my mind and heart. And shit I'm only one day off lol anyways I'm just so fucking excited to pick up my 18 month chip tomorrow. I've worked SO fucking hard for this shit man… this is going to be long, but if you want to hear a little more about my story from junkie to sober, responsible member of society working at my dream job at The Haven giving back and…
One month left until my one and a half years sober, birthday!
Feeling nostalgic. This past year and a half of recovery has been incredible. I dont think that I've ever experienced so many changes so fast. Decisions that were at first so fucking hard to make and scared the shit out of me. But thank God I did, because I don't think that I would have made it out and stayed out of addiction if I went right back to what I knew and what was comfortable.
