The Gandhi formula doesnot work against a regime of Hitler.

India looks like its absolutely destined to be doomed.

The world has muted India, the dying democracy. Nothing haplening in India will be objected to. People here are worse than ants.

I want to be more active on Mastodon but its tough as most of the active Indian people here have become completely unlikeable with time. So yes, am trying to stay active but need some engaging stuff.

I don't know how many of us will be alive when India regains its freedom. I just hope someone will document the true story of this violent, inhuman regime thats destroying this nation so that the future generations won't be tricked or fooled....let them learn from our generation's mistakes.

It feels so dark.
I actually went to a temple today just to seek some peace. But a part of me seems to know this is the end. The last parts of this story won't be happy. Am aware of it but still, it doesnot make it easier to face this time. I actually prayedto God to just end it soon & show me some mercy.

I don't know much ways to die that look accidental. Someday I might snap & do something thats an obvious suicide which will bring social pressure on my family. Brother is yet to marry. So for that sake alone I hope my death looks accidental. Life didnot give me any real accomplisent. Maybe in death I could do some good if I manage to find a good way out.

Something feels really off..
I know my life is not a big deal, surprised am trying to fight my suicidal thoughts since so long now. I know its not a fight I will win in the long run. And deep down it hurts to face the truth that I might have just seen my last birthday yesterday. Its not something anyone I know for real can understand. Its the sadness with which I will die, thts hurting me.