@Tablesaw YES YES THANK YOU SO MUCH
Let's see if Mastodon can help me - I saw something on TV AGES ago where this scary looking guy was listening to headphones and everyone seemed to avoid him and think he was all dark, BUT he was listening to Two Princes by the Spin Doctors and they show him by himself doing like cartwheels and shit and actually he is a super happy dude AND I NEED TO KNOW WHAT THIS IS FROM. HALP ME, MASTODON.
@meganpaasch Commiserate away~ <3 This song sums up my feelings ATM decently - Waving Through a Window from Dear Evan Hansen.
https://youtu.be/kfnMvo87fQU "Waving Through a Window" from the DEAR EVAN HANSEN Original Broadway Cast Recording
YouTube@meganpaasch It's just that I keep stopping myself from making friendships out of fear and I want so badly to persevere and that pressure only increases my anxiety lol
Like, I am having exactly the kind of conversation I like having with someone engaging and interesting but my brain has suddenly turned on the 'YOU ARE TOO MUCH FOR THEM YOU ARE OVERWHELMING YOU ARE GOING TO SCARE AWAY ANOTHER INTERESTING PERSON BECAUSE YOU ARE AN OBSESSIVELY SMOTHERING FREAK AND YOU CHASE AWAY EVERYONE IN THE END' and it won't turn off even though nothing about the conversation prompted this at all. Sigh.
Having a socially awkward, anxiety in the driver's seat day.