real quick-- if you're a csa survivor like me, and you experience trauma because of it, first of all i just would like to say that i'm so proud of you. you've gone through one of the worst things on this earth and your existence alone should be celebrated. you didnt deserve it. feelings of guilt or shame are common. to live in spite of it all is the biggest fuck you to your abusers. if you need help, im here to talk.