Can I be real for a sec?

I am utterly depressed and have been for about 10 years now(more or less).

I was ghosted by an old friend turned romantic interest. I know that only shows her true character but i believe it was my fault. It most likely wasn't but I can't think of any other logical explanation. It was my fault and probably deserved it.

I really loved her.
And she said she loved me as well.
I spend most nights lost in thought and wishing I were ☠️. #depression #heartache #sadboys

Here's another playlist for the metalheads🤘🏼. #music #metal #playlists #spotify

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5MCrWzu8PB0REVhTWYXGqv?si=TV0dBMnKTR-ku0OAxeeDNQ&pi=AUDOvGCbTSKpO