Wounded Pilgrim

@darknightofthesoul
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Not all who wander are lost, but I am.
Topics#mentalhealth, #mentalillness, #depression, #anxiety, #ocd, #adhd, #insomnia, #chronic, #trauma, #ComplexTrauma

if you'd just let me in
i could help
you'd see

your fear
it kills me
you are hurting yourself
so isolated

won't you let me help?

#fear #help #isolation #mentalhealth

How can you leave me here?
Not in the yes
Not in the no
Just liminal
In the silence
Where are you?
Do you care?
My eyes cry
By tears I cannot imply

Don't mind me
I'll just sit here
in the silence
waiting for you to answer
crying

Don't mind me
I'm sure you have
other important things,
more important than me

when you hurt
when you are sad
when you are overwhelmed
when you can't handle it anymore
i'd be here for you
but you have to run to me
you run away
you run away
you can't get out that way
i know it is easier
to retreat within ourselves
but i need you to run to me
i'm here
if you'll let me be
please
The silence is deafening
Can you hear how loudly you are shouting at me
Through your silence?
My heart quakes
My mind burns
I wait, hoping, fearing, trying
Two friends
Walking past each other in the fog
Do you see me?
Do you care?
One knocks on the others door
And they don't open
Next day the other knocks on the door
And they don't open
Missing connections
Frightened and hurt
Is there hope for healing?
I have nothing left to give
I can't keep pursuing you
You can't open your eyes and see
I've carried so much for us for so long
I can't...
I wish you would reach out to me
I desperately want you to
But I can't keep being the one who
Makes it all work
I could help if you let me
I can change if you change with me
But I can't keep doing it alone like this

My heart aches sooooo bad.

I can't seem to give you up,
It feels like death

I can't keep you,
Because you make me
Episodically feel like death

It all feels liked dying

You don't see the way you destroy me.
The little light you infrequently cast my way,
You think it is so much, so good, so amazing
But you don't know the overwhelming darkness you consume me with
most of the time