Mastodawn

i've got this subtle pain around my heart. been having them for a while now
maybe it's stress related, since i keep finding myself confused about the relationship. while there isn't much on the surface level, i'm always mourning the words i could've/didn't say, whether they were good or bad. mostly good.
i wanna see him more, kiss him more, understand him, become one with him
the left side of my face is also hurting what the helly
yeah um #heart #health #relationship

lotus 2h ago

someone said that they'll buy my #genshin acc tomorrow in the evening. waiting. i need the money.

lotus 14h ago

idk what you #canada people put in this. tears keep coming. and i aint stopping them i need an excuse to get my head off of #biology presentations

lotus 1d ago

feeling slightly better today, gonna finish my biology presentations
then i'll do my monthly supermarket shopping, go back to dorm, maybe eat and and..
haven't thought about the rest!
#saturday

lotus 2d ago

everything feels heavier and my heart hurts, like.. physically
i miss my friend so much

lotus 3d ago

looking back, there was something real nice about seeing the same people around the school over and over.
now there's always someone new at the cafeteria and different people waiting in bathroom lines

i saw this guy in my dream once, he's studying physics me thinks.
really wanted to go and tell him abt it but he doesn't seem to be around anymore

uhhh #dream #nostalgia

lotus 5d ago

i hate how it feels as if i'm trying to win an argument whenever we're having a convo abt some stuff we both are interested in. it doesn't exactly become a "who's more knowledgeable" thing but god his tone.
his tone.
istg there's something in it screaming to me that i'm small and will always be less than him.
i can't tell who the problem here is- for now.
till then all i can do is push myself to learn more and maybe try to talk more confidently

my tummy hurts and it's past my bedtime

lotus 6d ago

back to the dorm, period cramps are testing me
gonna log some #albums to #linernotd then order some food
then watch something while eating... #yuri kuma or maria holic probs
figured i had to do this awfully funny thing with tags to poke more people- excuse me for that ehe

lotus 6d ago

can't convince myself that im not the only one out there trying to live a #whimsy life
what do you mean all these people in my class also have a life and fun stuff going on in their lives
okay that was too harsh
maybe it's just my desire to have the whimsiest one
could be...could be

lotus 6d ago

happy monday!
in class rn, thankfully was able to sign the attendance at the last second
i need a tissue...