bye mastodon, it hasn't been fun and it hasn't been a good experience - kinda like the 9 years i had to spend with andrew lee - and like my time with andrew, it has been a waste
so, thanks for that
ara
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🎓 sociology/political science 🎓 religion, 60s scoop adoptee : waiting for m.a.i.d. to end what the govt of canada started
sorry, one last thing about andrew erik lee that i don't understand, is why he felt the need to look at porn all the time and save it all over the computer - there were pics of helf nekkid girls in school uniforms! and this is when he had a school aged daughter
and i have no doubt he would both use and hurt his own kid if his ego took a blow
i would make out like that relationship never happened if i could
btw i do appreciate being shown time and again that no guy has ever seen me as anything but a hole - chris hampton was the only one who actually admitted it tho
thank goodness now i'm too old, fugly and skinny to even be raped, even if you put a paper bag over my face, right guys? i appreciate the little things, like knowing arthur thought i was the ugliest child ever born and never wanted to adopt me. makes the end a lil easier.
enjoy.
*ps. andrew erik lee actually tole me that he messed with me and was an asshole to me on purpose, so i would prove i loved him
bcuz working 60 hours a week to buy his drugs and beer and let him make music wasn't enough proof... andrew also never stopped trying to convince me that letting him jizz all over my face was proof of my love 🤢
meanwhile his idiot cousin darren tried to push the narrative that i cheated on andrew, probably bcuz darren was cheating on his gf when i ended it with andrew
it's all moot.
if i had one wish, it's that i had never been born. i never would have been given to that ugly fat bigot known as arthur lawrence ainscow
and i never would have met andrew erik lee
sad truth is, i was actually more interested in his friend, who had more than 2 brain cells to rub together, but his friend didn't ask me out. and i had no standards back then nor did i follow my gut, thx to arthur conditioning me to accept disrespect as "love" -_-
thx for letting me share, ciao ✌️
i'm losing hope that m.a.i.d. will let me die, i'm tired of being manipulated, used and gaslit. i get to die. soon. bcuz i've paid way more than my dues. i did my time, i hurt and suffered my share
i get to die and be free, soon. bcuz everyone does
but right now, the spoiled privileged fat bellied adult males laugh at how the wind is always in my face, and say things like how they don't really care about being métis, they jist want the privileges that come with having the métis status
it's amazing that in the 4 weeks i've had a bike, the wind has only been at my back once - no matter which direction i ride, the wind has almost always been blowing me
i also found out why the bike never rolled on its own: the back brake was rubbing against the rim
so the front brake doesn't work, the derailer is dangerous and out of whack and the back brake is currently disabled, and the wind never gives me a break - meanwhile the only guy who tunes bikes at canadian tire is never in -_-
i had some extra food the other day, so i gave it to a neighbour who lets me charge my phone on an outdoor outlet and gives me lifts into/from town sometimes
he stated that i was "leaving gifts now" and it irked me
reason a: bcuz i'm not, and 2) it makes me think of how colonizers misinterpret the first nations, make the wrong ass.umptions and propagate fake narratives
such as the msm ass.uming the first nations woman was singing #canada's national anthem, when she was not
... #tiktok also knows how to get it up 😉
#sanctuary by #joji - 🥁 therapy for #cptsd
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i'm not really here, and won't be back again, but i had to come on to delete a tiktok... i will share that i'm still living off the grid in the lil shack i stumbled across outside of selkirk. my #cptsd attax start before 6am daily and this is one of things i do to get me thru the days n nights: #drum #therapy helps remind me that no one lives forever and i will get to apply to m.a.i.d. #soon. beats by folx like @Joji help
i tried to share a snippet of my 🥁 therapy and finding a lil #sanctuary in dem beats by #joji but after multiple tries, mastodon can't even upload a 30 sec vid 🤔
it seems appropriate to have named this platform after an extinct animal from a time long past, as that's kinda how it feels with its limited abilities and simple design... and inability to get even the shortest of video content uploaded
at least #youtube knows how to get it up 🤷🏾♀️
