The paradox of lovin' someone so deep, yet realizing they don't deserve it and missing the version of you that was capable of loving someone like that ?
Never have i ever felt more human than that I do rn. The deeper most craving to fix something but the burden of reality weighing upon myself knowing it's beyond repair, It's beyond any fixing and I have to really let go, makes me feel Helpless which I think should just be peak human emotion. To hope is for me was to feel like a god. And now I've to embrace the human side of me.
Day 1 log 3
Got a pretty good nap thanks to a random avil milkshake vendor. I'm waiting for sun to be kind di I can push it overnight. My need to show up at cali early morning just got deeper... It's 191 km stretch... I'll probably start around 3 pm and push a 100 by midnight. Then I've no clue how I'll push the rest of 90. But ig I just will make it. My gut tells me Imma see sunrise from cali beach. ๐๏ธ
Day 1 Log 2
Push to kerala went super well. I started off at 9ish from mlr and crossed kerala around an hour later. Taking a long break here and there ti the sunsets... So that I can push to cali maybe ?? Idk.
Day 1 Log 1
Reached Mangaluru Early Mornin' itself. waitin' for a xerox shop to open so I can submit my id to collect the cycle.. usin' the unexpected lag to recharge my digital devices ( prolly get a nap also ) mangalore mornin' does look pretty nice. Loved the Cotton Candy skies fr. Missin' Cali a lil'. Got okayish rest on train. startin' to realise I can't do much explore but just push to reach destination.. might not even get to visit all the pretty beaches and stick to NH 66.
Day 0 in review.
Started off with a strong ride to cali I've used muscles I thought I had long lost today and I'm glad to know they still working. Did 2 major climbs without getting off the cycle. Me being my biggest cheer leader still keeping me in the edge. Hope to push with the same rigour. Examm sucked but trip starts. Did a cutdown on luggage I'm carrying and still it weighs 7 kilo ish. Hoping to reach Manglore Central by 10ish and reach the border by evening so I could officially start.
And I did. Had breakfast and pushed to calicut reached railway and suvmitted the packaging request... It's so damn crowded and is gonna take atleast 4 hours. On my way back to campus for exam....
And another plan change. Looked up and saw that cali railway parcel office workin' time is between 9:30 and 6:30 didn't wanna miss that deadline so headin' to cali rn.. will parcel it in the mornin' come back to campus and catch the 1 AM train to mangalore. Gonna start the trip soon after breakfast..
#cycling #bicycle
เดเตเดฐเดณเดคเตเดคเดฟเดฒเต เดคเตเดฎเตเดฎเดพเดเดฟ เดตเดจเตเดฏเดเตเดตเดฟ เดซเตเดเตเดเตเดเตเดฐเดซเตเดดเตเดธเต.
https://www.theguardian.com/environment/2025/dec/17/galaxy-frogs-disappear-photographers-habitat-kerala
โMagicalโ galaxy frogs disappear after reports of photographers destroying their habitats
Researcher in Kerala rainforest sounds alarm after being told frogs had died after being handled by humans
Once I've recharged myself by the rest at cali it's my last push... the night push to Kochi... I've to make it somewhere near to kochi before sunrise... it's another 200 KM and yea my better back from 2022 had already done this... not sure if I could really keep up with bro But I'd have to try... If all goes good I'd reach Swathy's Home at Thrikkakkara on 22nd Monday Sunrise. This is important as I've to also buy somethin' good for my Christmas friend at OHC on 23rd.
Rajeesh