You’ve got to be some kind of special to become a trillionaire. Says more about humanity as a whole than the individual.
Really not sure if the relationship can hold together now that we’re resuming having the kids live us. My kids are scared. C feels hard done to by that.
I’ve told C that buying a house together and getting married are both off the cards indefinitely. I’ve also said that moving out of the town I live in is off the cards forever (she’s persistently been trying to get me to relocate).
C and I are in the last chance saloon. We’ve got my kids after school today for the first time since the incident a week and a half ago. They’re very upset and afraid of C. I spoke to the kids last night and tried to allay their concerns. C overheard and was upset at how I handled the conversation. I returned to the spare bedroom and slept there after having shared a bed for the first time since the incident the night before.
#relationshipsSince deleting my
#facebook and
#instagram accounts a few days ago, I have found myself occasionally thinking, oh, I’ll just have a quick scroll through some reels… especially when on the loo 💩 … but then I remember I no longer have an account. So I come here instead. And it’s so much healthier for me. Although I do wonder whether my
#socialmedia addiction is now just being fed by
#mastodon . I feel as though I need to be more disciplined about my time here too.
Read an article about the African referee who’s been denied entry into the
#US. Wish I hadn’t. It makes my blood boil and I can do nothing about it. I need to put filters back on this account so that I never see anything with the word Trump in it.
#uspol #fifa #worldcup3/. I’m on the waiting list for an appointment with a domestic abuse support organisation so I’ll talk it through with them. I question my own behaviour too and wonder whether I’m the problem. I think the truth is that we both have issues and sometimes they fuse and blow up.
2/ I’ve now got to explain to my parents, my ex wife, my three closest friends, the vicar, the vicar’s wife, the church safeguarding lead, and mental heath support workers that we’re giving it another go, despite the fact I told them all a week ago that it was 100% over after a huge red line had been crossed. They may think I’m a naive fool who’s been manipulated to stay by an abuser. I’m pretty sure that isn’t the case but I do feel a bit conflicted and confused.
1/. Told C it was over at couple’s counselling yesterday. Unequivocally. I stood firm against her emotional reaction. I felt a bit judged by the counsellor but she has been very good and still remained fairly neutral. C has been pressing me very hard ever since to talk and reconsider, and she got through to me today, and now we’re giving it another go, recognising that we need to make big changes and that we have a lot of work to do on ourselves and as a couple.
#relationshipsI really don’t like having a hairy back. I had the whole thing waxed a while ago but I have sensitive skin and the resultant irritation means waxing isn’t really viable. Maybe I can find a more compatible way of balding my back. The other challenge with it is determining where back and neck hair ends, and head hair starts.