I'd like to get into cosplay.
But
I'm old, insecure, unsure about people and confused about my own preferences.

It's really hard to meet new people and start different adventures when home is always the easy option.

#cosplay

How can you differentiate between a feeling that something is wrong (between you and someone else) and your mind just creating drama because that's what it does?

#mentalhealth #psychology #bpd #eupd #relationships

I mourn the losses
Those little changes
That strike me so hard
But seem to go unnoticed
Or, at least, never mentioned.
At that moment I lose a friend
And, even though I gain another,
I have to learn them all again.
I must force myself to trust
These new rules.
Hold back my needs because I know
They are too
Much

#eupd #bpd #friendship

Mahito's true shape is Frieza with a mask.

#jujutsukaisen #dragonballSuper #frieza #mahito

I'm back to reading She and her Cat by Makoto Shinkai and Naruki Nagakawa. Such a beautifully written book. There is something about Japanese cat stories.
I hadn't realised that Makoto Shinkai is the createor of Suzume, which I recently watched and enjoyed. I like those little links.

#makotoShinkai #narukiNagakawa #sheAndHerCat #anime #suzume #japaneseCatBooks

I think the most frustrating thing I've found with having the hormones and body I have, but don't want, is that my teenage son who does sod all exercise is still stronger than me who is reasonably active in a strength way.
I have no time or energy left to fight against my biology to even have the natural strength of my boy.

#nonbinary #afab #frustration #transmasc #strength

I've worked out how to judge my reactions.
I tell (a) normal friend(s). If they check up on me the next day then I am probably ok to feel like absolute shite. If they don't then I'm probably under my BPD and need to be careful.

#bpd #BPDAwareness #eupd #eupdawareness #emotionalawareness #selfcontrol