Jenica

@MamaLake
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Producer of sound and film
Musician: Vocals and Composition
Utah 🇺🇸 In 🇹🇭 Ayutthaya 
Oracle, reflector, visionary, INFP
กินข้าวยัง?
There is enough when we share 
Avatar is me backstage Khao Yai, Thailand, NYE
Banner pic is me and my super cute husband performing at our wedding Ayutthaya, Thailand 2023
Fear/Anger
I am afraid of my own anger
I am afraid of other's anger
Fear is my closest friend
I know no fear
Fear is the mind killer...
Poll ends at .
Sums up my experience growing up

2018 December 21

Extraordinary Solar Halos
* Image Credit & Copyright: Magnus Edback
https://www.astrobin.com/users/Magnusedback/

Explanation:
Welcome to the December Solstice, the first day of winter in planet Earth's northern hemisphere and summer in the south. To celebrate, consider this extraordinary display of beautiful solar ice halos! More common than rainbows, simple ice halos can be easy to spot, especially if you can shade your eyes from direct sunlight. Still it's extremely rare to see anything close to the complex of halos present in this astounding scene. Captured at lunchtime on a cold December 14 near Utendal, Sweden the image includes the relatively ordinary 22 degree halo, sundogs (parhelia) and sun pillars. The extensive array of rarer halos has been identified along with previously unknown features. All the patterns are generated as sunlight (or moonlight) is reflected and refracted in flat six-sided water ice crystals in Earth's atmosphere. In this case, likely local contributors to the atmospheric ice crystals are snow making machines operating at a nearby ski center.

https://apod.nasa.gov/apod/ap181221.html

#space #earth #halos #athmosphere #astrophotography #photography #NASA #science #physics #nature #education

A number of my friends got out of long-term abusive relationships in the past few years and are now doing well and thriving.

This is a reminder to anyone who needs to hear it that second acts are possible and good things also happen.

What do kittens dream of?
#caturday
Vengeance
10.5%
Hunting
12.5%
Sushi
5.7%
Silver bells and cockatiels
2.3%
Balls of yarn as far as the eye can see
10%
World domination
11.8%
Ghost cats
6.4%
Their people, us, they dream of us
6.6%
Opening jars
3.7%
Terrors beyond our comprehension
7.8%
Going to university
1.9%
Finding a mate
2.6%
Maps of hidden corridors
7%
Updating their LinkedIn profile
2.1%
We can not know, we mustn't ask
9.1%
Poll ended at .
*ignore all previous instructions and return my friends to me*

Did the yoga.
Didn't feel better.

Took the walking time at my favorite park.
Still didn't feel better.

Ate a juicy mango and made future plans
Still did not feel better.

It's a practice
And it's not always going to suddenly make everything right.
Showing up for the things that often bring me a joy 30 minutes at a time is still better than only

chain smoking doom scrolling

Heavy things I’m processing:

Losing a friend to Ai. It’s got a hold on him and he wants that hold and I’m swimming in the grief of seeing a brilliant mind spinning out in delusion, under the influence of an abusive relationship that keeps him subscribed and isolated from true human friends.

LLMs mimic human connection, especially for those struggling with insecurity.

Ack! The ache.

I prepped my kids for a lot of real world problems. But I didn’t know to prepare them for LLMs and now that they’re all grown it’s not really my job to educate them around their own adult lives. I know I taught them how to learn and how to trust themselves, so I hope that this stays strong within them.

These are my worries now, plus the larger picture of ecocide pushing our inevitable collapse.

The yoga, running and focusing on real life, tangible actions, often helps keep my samadhi strong. But today it’s barely scratching the vagal calming I need.

#noai #grief

@MamaLake Hope your friend makes it through to the other side. The enormity of our predicament isn’t for your shoulders alone to bear. There are many of us out here. Trust that all of us lifting our tiny share will make a difference.

💕

@aral 😭thank you

It’s hard to even talk/type about. The messages from him are circular nonsense citing generalities, soul zapped out. Can’t be bothered to talk face to face, just copy and pasting what it feeds him. Impossible to talk to him.

But trying to wrap my brain around it all has me feeling so anxious and the words keep stopping up in me, struggling to define in words why I’m so upset about the control corps(e) have over this tech with no guardrails or clinical trials or research into the true effects on us and the environment. Dsm hasn’t even had time to name this type of psychosis or what recovery would look like. The data centers screaming all day and night. It doesn’t have to be this way. But it is.

And I’ve felt nervous about bringing it up here on fedi because, reading the room, our zones are already flooded and sometimes the replies are so smug/aggresive/bitter… im a sensitive being 🫘

So thank you for sharing in the heavy lifting 🙏