Since it's caturday, I shall pay the toll.

I've been battling some mental health stuff and not quite knowing how to put it into words. Like, to friends, I simplify some of it, like, oh hey! New diagnosis. Finally found out whats actually going on with me. Came to terms with it, got the meds, and things are improving. Then, just as I'm starting to get a grip on things, BAM! Kidney stone. Well, actually, 2 of them, but only one of them is moving. So intense, agonizing pain is added and can barely function for weeks. That doesn't help my mental health. Now that I'm starting to finally feel better again, I'm being hit with a super stressful thing going down at work. Oh great. Just fantastic. Oh, and all these medical things happening? Sure, I have insurance, but it apparently sucks ass and now I owe an ass ton of money. So now I get to figure THAT out. I'm going to apply for financial aid through the hospital. At least I feel better enough to return to the gym? I definitely need it. I need to work out all this extra stress, get my strength back, and get this weight off. Omg!!! So this is why I've been so quiet. The worst part is there is so much more going on inside my brain and I just can't figure out how to let it out. It sucks.