What if I went through life without questioning my every move? Without making myself smaller?

Without having my lived experience doubted, ignored, if not outright denied?

What if I didn't have to expend so much energy justifying my own existence?

What if I could #write, #create, be, exist with the confidence of a mediocre white man?

What if we all could?

...what a world

full thought: https://fromemily.com/feedbackless-feed/#July-04-2025-08-59-AM

#ActuallyAutistic #ActuallyADHD #artist #writing #AmWriting #WritingCommunity

There’s something apt about my computer not recognizing my fingerprint after I #climb hard. When I’m away from screens and moving my body, I too don’t recognize the version of me so consumed with online spaces.

I want to wrench myself back with my weathered hands...hold onto what my computer doesn’t recognize. THAT is who I want to take hold of...and cradle her with calloused hands....

#climbing #ActuallyAutistic #artist #SocialMedia #writing #ActuallyADHD #MentalHealth

I #AmWriting

I am #writing through brain fog.

I am writing through gut-wrenching pain.

I am writing through the unexplained chaos of my digestive system.

I am writing without being able to eat.

I am creating through it.

And for some reason, I want—I need—"you" to know that I am.

Something in me needs you to know.

(((please stay with me...)))

Full thought & offering: https://fromemily.com/feedbackless-feed/#June-30-2025-05-55-PM

#ActuallyAutistic #ActuallyADHD #WritingCommunity #art #artist #spoonie #ChronicIllness

I added texture to the background of my #website...and it makes me feel like I can touch it.

I love the idea of holding the pages of a website like a #book...what kind of "wear" would a beloved website show with repeat readings?

Would favorite pages have dog-eared corners instead of browser bookmarks?

Feel free to touch: https://fromemily.com

#SmallWeb #IndieWeb #WebDev #ActuallyAutistic #ActuallyADHD #PoeticWeb #HandMadeWeb

I am not an elevator pitch.

I don't have clear, clean boundaries.

My #art has always been more MacGyver than artisan.

Full thought: https://fromemily.com/feedbackless-feed/#June-13-2025-12-26-PM

#websites #SmallWeb #IndieWeb #ActuallyAutistic #artist #MastoArt

My brain's been serving up some real darkness lately.

(And when an #ActuallyAutistic brain latches onto something, it COMMITS 🙃)

So I'm reminding myself that in this world (especially at this time) ✨#Autistic Joy✨ is an act of defiant resistance.

And I'll be damned if I don't remember to stand in awe of all I've weathered, and of our #neurodivergent culture as a whole.

@actuallyautistic

#ActuallyADHD #AuDHD #ADHD #neurodivergent #neurodiversity

"What I'm optimizing for isn't growth... reach, or influence. I'm chasing connection[...]spending my days on things that bring me alive."

"It's about...signals that something genuinely MATTERED to one or more humans...private replies saying they've never felt so seen or understood." Rob Hardy

To fellow #writers #artists grappling with how we value our work, maybe this idea of making our OWN metrics will resonate like it did for me: https://forest.quest/artifacts/measuring-what-matters/

Full thought: https://fromemily.com/feedbackless-feed/#June-10-2025-12-47-PM

Sometimes I feel like a broken record when #writing about #neurodivergence

But re-processing my past through the lens of #Autism #AuDHD #ADHD has brought validation & compassion—where before was self-gaslighting & abuse

So, at the risk of repetition, I'll err on the side of talking about it too much. Because we NEED our realities spoken

Especially at a time when our entire right to exist is under attack

Full thought: https://fromemily.com/feedbackless-feed/#May-29-2025-10-17-AM

@actuallyautistic

#ActuallyAutistic #ActuallyADHD

I don't think we should always have to include the "upswing" in struggles we share

When you're in the shit of it & all you hear is upswing, you can feel more alone—that you need to "suck it up/be positive." And I find that toxic

Still, I have BIG feelings about sharing my suck with so little upswing

...cause I'm a hypocritical asshole when it comes to myself🙃

Full thought: https://fromemily.com/feedbackless-feed/#May-22-2025-09-36-AM

#ChronicIllness #IndieWeb #writing #MentalHealth #spoonie #ActuallyAutistic #ActuallyADHD #blog

Nothing I’m trying to write is "flowing"...it's all laborious.

I'm encouraged by "Your labor isn’t a sign of defeat" from @aworkinglibrary wherein she quotes Verlyn Klinkenborg:

"if you accept that writing is hard work, And that’s what it feels like when you’re writing, Then everything is as it should be. Your labor isn’t a sign of defeat. It’s a sign of engagement."

Full thought: https://fromemily.com/feedbackless-feed/#May-19-2025-04-39-PM

AWL: https://aworkinglibrary.com/writing/your-labor-isnt-a-sign-of-defeat

#writing #WritingCommunity #AmWriting #writer #blogging