@PetraPhoenix It’s been transformative for me, I’m in the middle of my second 26 week set of EMDR sessions and it’s helping me wirh everything so much
@PetraPhoenix i’m so glad the work I’m doing with my therapist has let me accept that I can’t change her and just need to create distance. That’s made these interactions a lot less frequent
Didn’t tell her the reason for the cPTSD or that her chain smoking in the car when I was a kid and not letting me wind the windows down was the main cause. But I didn’t end up with her saying deliberately hurtful stuff and slamming the phone down either, so it feels like a win on points.
Phoned mum earlier, I’m full of a cold again for the second time in 4 weeks after two people in a month surprised me with a hug.
“Can I give you a suggestion?” She asked and then without waiting said “have you thought about trying to boost your immune system?” I told her I’m doing everything that’s suggested and she said “so why’s your immune system so bad?” And distilled all the reasons down to “I’ve got PTSD and the stress part lowers your immune system” she seemed happy with that
Asking the staff at the hardware store if I’ll understand WD-40 if I’ve not used the other 39
@nickajordan I really hope so. I’m fed up of everything being awful
@skylar it’s been horrible, for about 6 months every new thing seemed to pile on worry, but finally it’s starting to work out
Phone call from the letting agent, we were supposed to get the keys Tuesday so we could decorate Tuesday and Wednesday before the new carpets are fitted on Thursday, but the cleaners have arrived 3 days early and he’s now away this week so we get the keys tonight!
I wish there was a little more time between “I should cut my toe nails tomorrow” and “Quick! Someone call The Guinnes Book Of Records!”
It’s beautiful, the horrible, selfish thoughts about things like whether he can have free stuff from the shop where she dies, and how he can do the things she’d get annoyed at. All intermingled with the grief and sadness over the tragedy. It’s so wonderfully realised and truthful. I love it.
