Is it a Normal Human Thing to go through life feeling never listened to, always dismissed, and generally treated like a foolish child and/or hysterical woman?

Like, I had "I'm so unique! I'm so special!" pretty well beaten out of me, so I thought we were all on the same page here re: speaking and listening to each other in good faith???

But more and more it just feels like I'm screaming at a pile of rocks only to have psycho-babble weaponized against me: take your meds, control your emotions, you're playing the victim, you're projecting (I'M projecting?!), that's not how it is in the real world, you're naive, you live in a bubble, grow up, check your privilege, get a grip, open your eyes, you think you're so smart…

It's so fucking exhausting. And it's really confusing when I'm over here giving people the benefit of the doubt and, again, "good faith" assumption… Am I projecting? Am I an elitist snob? I guess we'll never know because people don't ever respond to what I say, they just start yelling at me and telling me what a terrible person I am.

I'd really really really like to not be Forever Alone(tm). But it's looking more and more like that's how my life is going to turn out. But is that normal? And whose fault is it? Mathematically the majority must be correct, so I MUST be the problematic idiot, right? And yet… with my last remaining crumb of self-respect… I can't quite believe that. I'm not perfect, but I'm also not STUPID enough for this many people to be ignoring what I'm actually saying and talking over me.

#autism #adhd #audhd #dismissal #invalidation #it's-about-to-drive-me-over-the-edge #like-this-is-me-being-HUMBLE-and-RATIONAL #you-haven't-SEEN-me-being-a-snob #but-if-we're-all-just-being-screaming-bullies-to-each-other-instead-of-having-actual-conversations...